What August Will Bring

The last month my Baby will be less than a year old. Once September is here she'll turn one and it's bye, bye baby, hello toddler. Who am I kidding? She's already a toddler. She toddles around. She's almost weaned herself. She only nurses about three times a day now. And only in our bedroom while I watch television. Sometimes I wonder if I've screwed up my letdown by feeding her in there the majority of the time. What if my milk won't let down unless I'm watching Canada AM, E Talk Daily or General Hospital? If I could actually feel my letdown I would know. Stupid boobs.

The other day I tried to feed her while we were at a BBQ. She flat out had a fit. I haven't nursed in public for a while and I'm out of practice so I admit I was a little embarrassed. I ended up putting her on the floor hoping she would just can it and play. Instead she rolled around on the floor crying. What a weirdo. She eventually stopped. I blamed fatigue but I think she was mad that I tried to feed her there. Maybe I'm nuts. Anyway, this brings us to our next point.

August is also the last month that I will not be working Fridays. Once September rolls around I will be working four full days in a row. Baby A will be going to a private babysitter from 9-4 on Fridays. This could prove interesting regarding breastfeeding. I'm not really sure what to do. I'm sure I won't be able to pump enough for all four days I'll be working. I know I can incorporate whole cows milk into her diet at that point if I want to... I'm just not sure. I may have to discuss this with my La Leche League Leader. She'll likely have some good suggestions. I haven't really bothered her with any questions since I was a new breastfeeder who was all insecure and freaked out. How far I have come. Now I coddle the new moms that come to our meetings.

I am not looking forward to my change in schedule. I have settled nicely into this one since January. I am working the perfect number of hours right now. Unfortunately I need to bring home some bacon so we can continue making our mortgage payments. I wish I was independently wealthy like Hugh Grants character in “About a Boy”. Why couldn't my father have written a famous Christmas Carol? Oh well...

One good thing August bring is two weeks of holidays for both Peter and I. I often find the anticipation is better than the actual event. I hope I am wrong in this instance. I want to have a wonderful time with Peter and Miss A during our first holiday since her birth. She is old enough that we can actually do some fun stuff with her. We are going to travel a little bit. Stay home a little bit. Work around the house a little bit. Peter is going to help me broadcast an entire week of YouTube entitled 'A Week In The Life Of Mama D'. How exciting. Actually, I am excited. It will be fun.

So my plan is to enjoy this month to the fullest because once it's over things in my world are going to change quite a lot.

Did I ever mention how much I dislike change?