Sunday, February 08, 2009

Long Overdue

Wow. So I haven't written in a while. Things have been a little out of control around here lately. I have wanted to write plenty of times but it just never seemed to happen for various reasons. Sick kids. Procrastination. Sleep Deprivation. Depression. Not necessarily in that order.

The girls have both been sick. Miss A has an ear infection. I actually took her to the doctor because she'd been running a low grade fever for too long. I was surprised to find out about the ear infection because she hadn't really complained about her ear at all. After we found out I remembered her asking me once what was in her ear but I never caught on. Baby B has croup. So far it's been manageable, we haven't had to make any trips to emergency in the middle of the night or anything. Poor little girls.

The sleep deprivation I mentioned in self explanatory I think. And is of course, never improved by sick kids.

The depression is better now. It was basically due to work related issues. I wanted to blog about it SO badly because I felt it would be therapeutic but I was (am) terrified that my employer would somehow find out about it. The fact that he doesn't like computers or spend time on the internet makes this possibility less likely but I'm still nervous. I don't want to join the many people who have been fired for writing about their jobs on the internet. I'm only writing about it now because I feel it is somewhat resolved. I spoke to my boss about everything (embarrassingly, while bawling my eyes out) that had been bothering me and although it's obvious we really don't see eye to eye I was satisfied that he knew my side of things. Also, I could tell that seeing me so upset really bothered him and I suspect it may have made him consider the situation further after we'd talked. This week was much more pleasant work wise and I'm hoping the rough patch is over. The whole situation just had me thinking "What the heck am I doing this for anyway?"

And then the procrastination. Ha! Well, when I'm feeling like my life is out of control I like nothing better than playing this game and controlling the lives of the tiny little people I've created. When do I find the time you ask? After the kids go to bed, when Miss A is at school and Baby B is napping. That sort of thing. And now there's a new version coming out. Which likely won't help me with the procrastination bit. Oh well. But seriously. Watch the video. How cool is that?!

Watch the video


Lynanne said...

Sorry to hear you all have been sick and feeling under the weather.

I'm hooked on that little game too. Building, designing, playing grown-up barbies/doll house - love it all! Maybe you could recreate your coworker/boss/whoever has upset you and have a little pool ladder accident?

bon said...

... get a few kids sick and add a little (doesn't need to be a lot) bit of sleep deprivation and that is a GUARANTEE of depression for me.

Of course you play that game... I FANTASIZE of creating little people who will actually DO what I tell them without me having to count, threaten, yell or turn purple.

jen k said...

doesn't it feel so much better now that oyu talked to the boss??? like you finally exhaled??? i keep saying we need to get together...i still mean it..maybe friday afternoon???i'll facebook you!!!

elizasmom said...

Aww, I'm glad you got your side of the story out. I hope it's better from here on in.