Tuesday, January 23, 2007

I Can Take It (I hope)

So I've noticed something. You see I have a Site Meter. Each week I receive an email telling me how many of you stopped by each week. Now normally, I'm not overly concerned by this number. It usually is pretty much the same give or take a few. But lately I couldn't help but notice the number has been going down. For past few weeks each weeks number has dropped slightly lower. So I have become concerned. At this rate only Peter will be reading in a couple of months.

I don't blog to be a celebrity or to see how many readers I can accumulate. That being said though it's nice to have an audience. I blog to get things out of my system. To work through stuff. To get feedback. To entertain. So if I lose my readers I lose at least some of my purpose.

My question is. What up? It's okay. Give it to me straight. Have I become boring? Has my writing become fluffy? Not deep enough? I haven't written any really dark, searching my soul kind of post lately. Do you actually like those? Or maybe is it not enough cute stories about A or not enough pictures of her? Or too many? Do you really hate YouTubesday that much? Just tell me what I can do better and I'll do it.

I know Bon was telling me the other day that she was having trouble commenting and I myself was having trouble with blogger and commenting during that whole blogger beta period. But it's not really the comments I'm worried about. It's what my Site Meter is telling me. It's telling me I suck.

I realize I'm really asking for it here. I asking for people to slaughter me with cruel comments about how boring I've become or how they just don't give a crap about me or my family anymore. But that's alright. Why? Because another reason why I started blogging was because I wanted even one person out there to feel comforted by something that I shared about my life. That when I make awful, personal and shameful confessions here that someone can feel better that they aren't the only one's who feel that way. And then they forgive themselves. Because that's what I do when I read stuff like that.

So tell me how I can be better. Tell me what you want to hear. Or you know, tell me I'm funny.


babydmama said...

Well I am still lurking here everyday with the occasional rare comment - and that's just cuz I'm lazy. I like to see what's going on with you and Miss A (my daughter is 10 months). I have noticed maybe you are happier lately so posts are on the lighter side but there is certainly nothing wrong with that!

Sugarmama said...

For what it's worth, my traffic and comments have gone down considerably in the past month. I chalk it up to not posting, visiting, or commenting myself nearly as much, but I don't know if that answers your question.

You ARE funny, by the way, and what's more you're an interesting, nice person. I wouldn't change a thing.

Hey, maybe this is happening to everyone this time of year. Like, maybe a whole bunch of people have resolved to quit screwing around on-line quite so much and that explains it. If that's the case, it'll probably go the same way that my resolve to go to the gym X number of times per week peters out, too. Ha!

Kelli in the Mirror said...

Hmm. I keep visiting because I like to read what you write. I haven't noticed that anything's changed lately.

I don't know if this makes a difference, but I do have you in my bloglines, which means I only come by when I see you have something new up. When you post less, I visit less. Used to lurk more often just to check in before I got on the bloglines thing. Does that affect the sitemeter, I wonder?

Nikkie said...

I've noticed the same thing on my end, but I've chalked it up to me being busy, posting less and commenting less. I always read your blog everyday. I think your funny and I enjoy your posts. I do think Kelli is right about the bloglines thing.

Dawnyel said...

I'm SURE you weren't fishing for compliments, but you're gonna get them...Your blog is great! When I get around to reading from my list (which has grown considerably lately...) you are one of the ones I make sure to read!
My only thing is that I'm so busy now...blogger is still fun, but I've found other outlets for my emotions. It's not you...It's ME! (Gee, never thought I'd use that one on a lady!) I think I've also missed your comments on my blog...not that I'M FISHING for readers or anything! ;) Just somethings to think about...

LvlyRita said...

Hey, never been to your site, but had a nice laugh at the Dave Foley sketch. My DH and I liked him on "News Radio." I use myspace, and change it up for added interest every month (pics, music, backgrounds) my numbers go up after I've done that. You do have a nice way w/words. . .so who knows? Anyhoo, be blessed!