Tuesday, December 09, 2008

*#@$ !

It is so totally unfair that less than five months after having Baby B, and in spite of the fact that I am exclusively nursing, my 'womanly gift' has returned. What the bleep?

It wouldn't be quite so bad if it didn't make me feel like a bag of crap. Like a bag of crap that can't stop crying over NOTHING.

It was the weirdest thing. On Saturday night after the kids were in bed and we were catching up on various television programs I was suddenly hit with a wave of dizziness and fatigue. Soon after I discovered the likely culprit and was absolutely disgusted.

I recall it came back when Miss A was around 7 months old and I was very upset and sent a worried email to Bon asking "Am I normal?" It seems everyone else I know gets at least a year out of the deal.

Why not me? Looking after two kids is challenging enough without being an emotional basket case and feeling so exhausted that you just want to lay around all day. All of this on the heels of going back to work. Sigh.

On the upside, I'm ready for Christmas. Oh. Except for the tree which is still naked. I'll see what I can do about that.

6 comments:

beth - total mom haircut said...

It happened to me around 6 months after both kids. And, like you, it makes me a total basket case. Hubby knows when it's on the move from like 5 days out...

carrie said...

It could be worse. Mine returned after six measly weeks! And I nursed till the boy was three. No fair. Bodies are so strange.

elizasmom said...

Like Carrie, I got hit at 6 weeks. My OBGYN didn't even believe me, but yep. anyway, I have to agree, it is grossly unfair (emphasis on grossly). Like all the post-partum hormones still floating around in your body aren't enough, you have to deal with PMS hormones, too, and right when you return to work? Bleh.
Good luck with the tree!

Lynanne said...

Ugh. I'm sorry :(

I never got a 1 year off either. even when I was nursing TWO kids. With MissE, my "gift" appeared in time for Christmas (not quite 3 months). Bah Fricking Humbug.

Maybe the women that claim they went a full year were in such a sleep-deprieved fog that they forgot the earlier return of the AF witch? Or, maybe its myth right up there with "all the baby-weight just melted right off."

More likely, people brag about the good but no one wants to hear about "normal"

bon said...

Bleah... I don't even want to THINK about it, and I am already thinking wistfully about bottles of formula. BFing gets easier after the first month right? RIGHT!!?

My boob huuuuurt.

Diana - Teacher Mom said...

That totally sucks! With my first, I got when she was 8 months old and started to wean herself. With my second, I only nursed him for the first two weeks and so I got it around his first month birthday. Not cool.